Welcome. Please Don't Die.

I think I'm going to use this blog to convey my struggles with clinical depression, and how, after two decades, things are finally improving. I hope that my stories can inspire others battling depression, and maybe show them that it can be beaten. I suppose I'll just tell my tales, send my postcards from the abyss in my own soul, and hopefully, they will give others hope.

And there is hope. I never thought I'd say this, ever, but hope exists. The fight continues, but I'm making progress. Things can get better. If you're thinking about suicide, PLEASE GET HELP. Do it NOW. If you don't know where to go or who to see, then do what I did. Go to the ER at the hospital, and tell them you're thinking about ending your life. Feel free to use the phrase I did. I said to the nurse "I want to commit suicide, but I promised my friends I'd come here first." They'll look after you pretty quickly. They may not be able to help you right away, but they can put you in touch with people who can. I eventually got an appointment with a councellor at a mood disorders clinic. Ask for help, and be patient. Above all, don't give up. I wanted to, but I didn't, and now I'm glad I didn't.

Anyway, that's what this blog will be. Just stories about my struggles, the progress I've made, and the hope that it might inspire you.