Purpose

I am mostly happy these days. My life is going pretty well right now, financial problems aside. However, one thing gnaws at me. What am I supposed to be doing with my life? I may be where I am supposed to be (and I think I am), but that doesn't tell me where I am supposed to go in the future, or what I am supposed to do.

I would love it if the gods would give me some sign, some clue as to what, if anything, I am supposed to do. Have they already given me a sign, but I wasn't paying attention? I don't know.

Sometimes, though, I think I already know. No matter what I do, there's always that little voice in my head that says I should write. I haven't been able to write much for a long time, and recently, I don't even have the desire to try, and yet the voice persists. "You should be a writer. You should be writing." Is the voice in my head the sign? Are the gods trying to tell me something?

Perhaps they are. I don't know if my desire will ever return, or if I'll ever get any good at writing, but I am open to the possibility that I should give it another shot. Maybe, just maybe, that's my purpose. I mean, apart from caring for and loving all the important people in my life, of course. The problem, apart from being mostly unable to write, is that I'm not sure. I just don't know...